I can’t answer this one, but it’s a tough question.

Thinking can get you into trouble. Too much introspection can be begloom-ing. (I really do like that word.)

There have been several times in my life when I made a decision against the grain and acted on it. And sometimes I had to fight for the decision against the odds. And I had to fight people too, sometimes, against what they thought I should do. I don’t know yet if the decisions were right, wrong, or indifferent, but each time it was something I needed to do for myself, so I did it, with a lot of prayer. And I went outside my comfort zone each time.

Going outside one’s comfort zone is a good thing, I think, but it can also get you to a place you might not ultimately want to be. It’s a truism to be careful what you ask for, because you might get it.

And, have you ever noticed, that most times when people feel they heard God telling them to make a certain decision, He only told them what they wanted to do already? Why is that…

Ordinarily, if I make a wrong decision I berate myself endlessly until I move on. But in these cases, the jury is still out. Talking to friends about it at the times was surprising in itself. There weren’t many yellow or red lights, just green. And sometimes the green was for the wrong reasons. I knew that too.

So how much help was that! Ultimately I knew it had to be my decision, and this was almost laughably funny, because the consequences would be all mine no matter what advice I received. I would be responsible for the decisions either way.

I only know that each time I did the best I could with the highest sense of myself and from a sense of love. I’m not sure that can ever be wrong.

So will I feel the same way I’ve sometimes felt if any of these decisions turns out to be wrong? I hope not, but there is no fool-proof insulation in life.

I think in these cases I will repeat again:

I only know that at the time I did the best I could with the highest sense of myself and from a sense of love. I’m not sure that can ever be wrong.

That doesn’t feel like self-justification to me. Just living life without a crystal ball.

Karin

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